Friday, April 28, 2006 @11:54 AM
hello worlds.I have a sudden surge of urge to blog...blog sth regardin this person whom crossed my path sometime during my teenage years which left me truly breathless.It was suppose to be amazing,for the fact that i really enjoyed every single moment of my time with her,all the stuffs we did for each other etc.However it was one rash decision of mine,that caused it to drift apart.We were soooo close to getting together i swear that the feelings was mutual.And now,we are just some kinda strangers,or shld i say hi-bye frens? Root of cause : Impatience.
I was searching for sth along my shelves in the room,when i stumbled on a dusty shoebox.It may seem just like a stupid shoebox, *wad the hell do i still keep it for*, inside are the contents which will always be a part of my memory in life. The letters i wrote and received to this special someone. There were lots of letters, memorabilia and little little things she hand made.Bookmarks,guitar tabs for songs etc.What shook my the most was the designations of the letters as well as the contents inside them.
I read a few of the letters we once shared.It really was a nostalgic kinda feeling.Totally brought me to the time it happened,literally.Suddenly i was reminded of the sms-es we had,msged so much till our bills eventually exploded,our parents really gave us a big dressing down haha.Moments all so wonderful yet short. i can still rmb u once had this play in the evenin till late.Not minding the time u had left as well as the tiredness in u,u still came down to my then workplace and waited for me.Oh yar once,we even walked from marina square all the way to LPS just to have fishball noodles haha. unfortunately,good times aint long lasting.They only serve as memories to be cherished. I declared my feelings too readily,u werent able to accept it in time,i guess it was ur crucial year for the 'O' s? family pressure and ultimately u urself, as to how to cope with all these? i blew it.
I should have given u more time,i shld have taken the opportunity to know u more as a fren,go thru with ya the hard times b4 doin so.One wrong move and big drastic changes happened to our lives since. this entry i wrote has no intentions to bring ya back to me whatsoever,whether ur attached or not.I absolutely have no intentions to do so.I just wanna say that during that particular period of my life,i was TRULY happy,savouring every single moments,which were awkwardly short,with ya.And believe me,all the gifts i showered on ya was a measure of my sincerity for ya :) Hence whether u eventually get to read this or not,this entry is dedicated in memory of....not YOU, but ...us. *Us does not mean we are together,just mean that its the 2 of us whom we both had good times together*
Lengthy entry,sheit...guess its bad for the eyes to u readers.sorry.will be back for more :)