Monday, May 22, 2006 @11:54 PM
It was utterly,ultra,bittersweet and most of all humilliating day for me today.May 22,2006. It was a mixture of wrecked feelings,emotional ambivalence. Wanna know wads with me? shall blab about it below.Continue readin my loyals.hahaha
*complains complains* yes yes i know i ve been updating my blog pretty infrequently.Truly apologetic about it cause work has been tiring me,physically and mentally.Its like a huge rock of burden that i m carryin on my back.which explains y i either felt too exhausted to blog or that the tiredness in me has killed my inspiration to talk about.But thankfully,work does have some fun,my colleagues,the sales,conversations with smiling customers as well as a Certain Someone.
She is what that makes the whole working environment a whole lot happier, and a motivated me.Despite our relative strangeness we feel,for the fact that i kinda know her not long only, it felt refreshin to me in an unexplainable way haha. ok here's DA BOMB.
Was leavin for lunch in the afternoon when i asked : "Hey can i get ya sth to munch or sth? its like so bad for ur stomach to not eat". Sadly she declined.Headed for foodcourt to feed.Sudden thot came to me in that,she may not want it,but that doesnt mean i cant give it to her,discreetly. Yeah,bought some buns n hid it inside her bag for her to eat later.Holy mother of god did i realise that not only she was so blur, *sorry for callin ya that but instead i found it cute* she asked everyone who got it for her.Strangely i was the last which she asked.when everyone denied,it left me.Redness,embarassement and rush of heat to my head all came.Everyone started "ORH, no wonder.." this n that...blah blah....
What was meant to be a discreet,considerate and sweet action was all revealed by the very SPECIAL Her.Great, i m totally humilliated.Colleagues just kept poking fun after.Sigh what a dilemna man haha. But despite all the blurness and embarassing moments,i liked the fact that she's blur and direct.Its so unlike other girls who might keep quiet,blush and smile.
Jur style was tellin me over our late dinner at sunshine just now.He said : "Hey man,that was a gd move so n so,u shld appreciate it rather than sulk becuz of ur embarassement,becuz at least she was different from others,at least she openly thanked me for the food." wow,blown away today literally.Keepin mi heads up even thou chances of us progressin better as frens seem to be fadin,SHE is quittin soon,her U is startin, argh.
finally to u peeps after the lengthy entry on - All about me. sorry for the long entries n it felt kinda a self-centred entry, but thanks for readin it thru n stuff haha.Will update u guys pretty soon i hope :)
Fingers crossed,head tilts n pray for the best.Peace out.