sorry for the long absence from my blog. just that been feeling really down ever since posted to ocs. dan was rite. OCS is totally different from bmt. 1st wk in there and i literally died. even before the physical training has yet to commence.
i am on the verge of a mental breakdown. i so wanna tear but i m holding back. its a mental torture to go thru. but thats all officer-to-be has to go thru. and i will persevere. i shant really go into depth of wad life in there really is.
Anyway xmas celebration yest was fun. it was memorable. and it indeed left a memorable experience etched deep in my mind. once again i shant elaborate it too much, but instead leave it subtle for u guys to go figure. there's a reason for me to do so. continue readin..
checked out of SAFTI at 430. it was drizzling. feeling was totally down and out. becuz of the fact that i have to book in tmr. which is TODAY. but thankful for the fact that there's no confinement becuz of the festive hols. headed straight to aunt's place for dinner gathering.boy it was gd.food was goood and the bondin of the family really lifted me up.
there was the bbq-ed crabs, fish, potatoes ice cream cakes, red wine and lotsa chi foodies. curry chicken and bee hoon was fantastic compared to cook house food inside. but i have to give credits for ocs cookhouse.afterall they r WAY BETTER than bmt's one.
cousin joel asked me to head to weiliang's place for drinking later. hesitated big time, wanted to go home so much becuz of the stress i ve in bookin in tmr.but finally he persuaded me. boy that was a decision i so din regret. headed to wei liang's place at orchard. great place right in the heart of town man. had fun time eatin bbq again and mingling with the guys and girls from keppel.
joel, yinfung,kun yang, wen han, bjorn, wei wei, kenneth, winson, boon hao, my sis, jorain , nicole and of course the host of the night, weiliang and her sister, wee jia.
had fun time drinkin big time amt of liquor which got me very high for a while. coupled with several puffs in between. omg it was sth i didnt felt for a long time. it temporarily got my troubles out. and in particular, something, someone, some ... feeling i had, made me enjoyed the whole time there. ( *subtle hint) haha
yeah its quite unexplainable. but its a feeling i had not had for quite a time alr. it made me fill with hope and gave me a boostin morale.
ok back to yest. we had rounds and more rounds of gambling session and drinkin. joel was all knocked out and fell out the earliest haha. first time seein him bein that way. chilled till 4 and had a early breakfast. breakfast was prepared by wee jia's bro, his proclaim gd-to-eat, wont regret, porridge. indeed it was gd. but i was kinda a cheatin way to cookin it haha. still, thumbs up.
got home at 530, before sleepin tilll 10. as i left the host's place, it felt kinda weird for me, that to leave the place, the fun there and.....
kudos to the pple yeah. keppel pple aint a bunch of snobbish peeps. rich as they may be, they r ncie pple. i sure wld like to hang out with u all.
headin to india for 3 months on late jan next yr. will be sailing away. and so is someone i heard, leavin on presumably the same day as me... to the States? haha.
finally Merry Xmas everyone.
random thot : Is Leo and Taurus a perfect , compatible match? someone enlighten me.
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Its official. nothing can contain my rejoice in gettin a place in SAFTI. its gonna be a place i m to live within the walls for 9months. There stood a tall tower which i will be visiting it for many reasons, be it tekan or whatever. yeah OCS.
Gotta fly after this. need to release my choked bowels before heading out. Navy, here i come.
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....last night before the verdict will be read out tmr at 10am. there i m standing at the docks of the court, awaiting anxiously for it to be read. for the verdict to decide my future. Fate is the one that decides my future. And an all important one. Because if tmr's verdict turns out to be a death sentence, there goes my life. my career.
Totally feeling emo rite now. not for the matters of the heart but rather more on my future. never have i felt that anxious before. not even the day before my O'level results is out n stuff. Guess wads botherin? its my posting for army man. because shld i fail to get my ass into OCS, SISPEC will welcome me with open arms. for all i know, SISPEC is known as Sch of infantry specialist, but i prefer to call it "SUFFER IN SILENCE PLUS EXTRA CONFINEMENT"
cant it get any truer? i mean sispec goes thru the same shit as ocs. as in literally have the same amt of suffering. just that its a mere 5 months instead of 9. but the rank is helluva a lot.but to hell with the rank hierachy because my mind was made up 2 months ago , that i m gonna make a navy officer, a lifetime career for me.
Also, if i successfully negotiated the OCS hurdle, it will be a stepping stone to further success. it will be a vital one that propel me further. yes. my desire to get a degree in SMU. of the 3 Uni which i compare, i find SMU's style of teachin, holistic and broad-ended. gone are the typical ways which local teachin r where they throw u books to study, or the always teach-and-listen,write and listen kind. whats more exciting is the fact that smu accept students for who they are, not what they are of, academically. its character and leadership qualities etc etc that they're lookin out for to make the whole sch a lot more vibrant. like a cosmopolitan city of rich,diverse culture.
there u have it, might seem like some advertising agency promoting the uni, who cares, thats how i feel abt everything man. but in fact, perhaps they shld pay me if such an advertising media of minute impact pays off HA. yup. thats how i paint my life in several years if everything goes accordingly.
Tmr's gonna be a hectic day of outing. might follow ron to safra to collect the movie vouchers.might catch The Holidays, not a bad movie cause i love sentimental flicks. Plans for jacks' farewell dinner before he enlists the next day is still in the midst. Might head out for more retail therapying despite me being so fuckin broke. G-star's having sale baby. shall pop there to check out the caps and prolly will get another pair of denim IF.....IF there's sale haha.
Aunt's giving out xmas goodies early.so might take adv of it by buyin sth pampering first.hmmm it finally dawn on me that satisfaction can never be fulfilled. told myself that gettin that wallet of mine shld suffice, and now i m lookin for more shits! damn i m such a fickle ass.
Debit card finally arrives. yeah cant wait for it to start fillin up with cash from my salary before i embark on a spendin spree! haha.
Oh yar, chilled out at Liquid's Kitchen @ Serangoon Gardens earlier with ron. all i can say is its a great hangout place,with that alfresco feel. dimly lited with plush seats, soccer tvs, pool and smokin area. ultimate chillout.owe u one ron. ;)
will be headin off soon. wakin up early for a long jog tmr. wish me luck for tmr postin. will blog abt it.
after 14wks of monotonous entries. i reckon this lengthy entry as a refreshin and juicy one? haha adieus :_)
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It was an eventful day. popped by at the chalet platoon 3 has booked. supposedly its a 3 day 2 night kinda thing but i figured that to fit a chalet with 40+ pple , not only will there be space constraints, sleepin will oso be a prob. so here i m bloggin a random entry in here while over at NSRCC, its havoc and mayhem in unit 17.
mayhem? i ll tell u wads that and why so. put 40+ guys in a typical chalet, throw in a few playstation 2 's boy-gaming like soccer and the adrenaline level just goes UP, soaring. noise generated will be i-dun-give-a-fuck decibels high and stuff. add in some mahjong tiles in and food and the place will turn into a pig sty! haha
of all i said, thats just boys stuff. we are untidy.but we dun give a damn. we like it to be that way. its just guy's nature to be rowdy and messy ha!
anyway it was worth the trip. last chance to gather together as a platoon before we are all headin to a brand new direction , a whole new camp, a damn bed which i wld take 3 months to get used to again. sect 3 peeps managed to ordered a POP cake as to celebrate we being PRIVATES.
u got it. its our platoon photograph printed on that creamy ass cake. and guess who i ate?
PC razali. cooliomafolios is that! ok ok entries lately has been quite monotonous i know. shall blog more often b4 i dun get the chance to. tmr's outing with jacks. throwin in a farewell cum bday dinner for us before he heads into tekong. apologies for not turning up on sun yeah. wed most prolly will be spent with wing. kept turnin him down becuz of schedules. dude owe ya man.
alrighty, last 4 epsiodes before the BIG BREAKout from Fox River Prison. i cant wait to see wad happens.definitely gonna finish it by tonight if not i will die of curiousity. damn didnt know a serial like this is so gripping, like an addiction so strong. fuck.
strongly recommend anyone to catch it. its BETTER THAN LOST. JJ.ABRAMS u BOO.
caught deja vu last sat. awesome show. no spectacular pryotechnics or outrageous storyline but the plot is there.rock solid.
aye aye shall go watch. bye!
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3 episodes of Prison Break gone and i am totally blown away by the entire story. the plot if so intricate, yet its so subtle that it leaves you wanting to know more. its like a drug that keeps u so addicted to it. that if i shld miss an episode for even a while, the drug starved me would kill me from the inside!
haha exaggeration. but yeah thats how explosive the drama is to me. its so much better than LOST. whereby the season just goes on and on for the sake of earning more tv revenues by just spinning the story longer. fucked up!
As i m penning 'em down, gonna finish up my entry before i head straight into the abyss of it again. yeah its in the paused mode and my fingers are itching me to hit the PLAY button.
FUCK. gtg peeps ta :)
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In case if ya didnt see wads imprinted on the box, its GUCCI baby. yup i finally laid my hands on that monogram wallet that i waited so long for. cool money cool wallet haha. worth every penny man.
simple yet elegant dont it? =)
happiness aint just abt the wallet today. i officially got a debit card today.thou its not a credit one yet, its a gd headstart to it. i guess soon credit will be within my reach haha. owning a plastic is indeed sth everyone yearns to.
Here's a promotion, buy 2 happiness get 1 free.? aint that a gd offer? yup thats wad i got today. sis bf ripped the entire Prison Break season for me when i just asked for yest. how efficient can that be. so gonna start watchin as soon as this is over.
nuthing much left to say except feeling kinda lethargic. will rest after downing 2 epi of it later ha! till then i will be back for more updates daily =)
outing with long time no see gerald tmr. lots shits to catch up with man ha. tata peeps.
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Allow me to explain the 2 wks of AWOL-ing my blog. in case u dun get wad AWOL means, Absent without official leave. i guess 13wks in military life brought about all the army jargons out of me. been rather busy during the wkends so much so that there's little time for me resting.
2wks have passed.seem a short time to most,perhaps long dreadful time where everyone's lookin forward to x'mas. For me it seem like a whirlwind. lotsa things have happened and are to happen.
Things accomplished in BMT : *this rox, everything's done,nuthing feels better than personally finishing every damn thing*
- Field Camp
- SIT TEST
- M16 Live Range
- Live Grenade Throwing
- IPPT
- Standard Obstacle Course
- 24km Road March
Cant believe i survived that dreaded,gruelling,fucktart march. totally mentally sapping. but end of the day i did it. it couldnt felt better than anything. that road march boosted my own confidence in myself. mental strength and endurance. 3 cheers!
IPPT was gd for me. SBJ was always my boogey station. it was a miracle that i jumped 225 on that day when almost all failed. i hope that wld boost my chance to going OCS. Whats more surprising is that my running was fucking shockin. i actually shaved off a further half min off from my alr gd timing of 10.29 in the 3rd diagnostic test. final timing was 9.47mins. fucking fast.couldnt believe it. frens were awed by the timing. shorty,with short legs cld run like a seasoned runner kinda engine. didnt wanna reach for the 944 mark as GOLD was outta my reach becuz of the DARN SBJ, again.
Platoon photograph is alr here.will upload it up by the next posting for all to see, since some may not have seen the new me haha, leaner meaner and tanner! :)
random thots: Signed the provisional contract for Naval Combat Officer on Tuesday. Will officially be a Midshipman if OCS takes me in. dont get it? I'm gonna be a Naval Officer soon! ha.
I heard lotsa objections in signing on initially. Daniel, RS, Alex, Ong and all. that signing on wld mean gone r the days of real FREEDOM, more rules to adhere by and stuff. but....whats freedom....? when ur troubled with fianancially? i aint sayin that signing on was purely becuz of monetary factor. but rather it is a more stable career, not only that, i feel that it wld be a very exciting journey ahead, with the fact that my dear uncle, who's holdin a decent position in RSN assuring me that too. yup thats abt it.
Graduation Parade is up,coming wed. And i m feeling ambivalent abt it. Rejoice that i no longer need to step into that darn island again every sunday ,with the blues in me. Happy that i no longer need to don the green ugly,fugly uniform and withstandin the sweat. but having giving up all those, i will also lose all the frens i made within the platoon esp my section mates. It was truly a happy time spendin those 3 months with u guys. All the shits we been thru, we did it. Hence,wanna dedicate a small part of this blog to u guys man. its u guys that made the whole experience worth cherishing.
- Fishcake "Burp king" Yubin
- Tian Ye "Kun Xin" Nicholas
- Chewy Wei Kian
- Wild Boar Ryan
- Toilet King "Buddy 1.5" Kent
- Gayboy Weiren
- Garang King Alvin
- Chocolate Wayne
- Satan Khetan
Its esp memorable to have made gd frens in there like nicholas and chew , with their funny, unusual antics of jokes and stuffs.
Block leave 's coming rite after POP. lotsa things to do man. haha get my Gucci wallet *Yeah baby!*, sentosa beach!, clubbing!, retail therapy, meeting up with frens, gettin x'mas gifts, late night outs watchin football, and prata sessions!
Shall go off soon, gonna go tarik for teh later with sis.
All in all, good things are meant to come to an end, however its the memories that will always be cherished in our hearts......in our...?
"Hearts!"
oh yar, one more thing, its to this girl, whom i shall not name.but if ya figured out who u r or rmb visitin my blog, dun give up yar? Learn to be strong.Learn to accept that things in life are meant to be given and taken. Its thru hardship and failures that make one stronger. learn to give certain things up. be confident to face the future. Step forth and never dwell back for u nv know what are the gd things awaiting in front. Dont give up ya happiness for the sake of other's satisfaction. i admire your consideration and sensitivity of others, but do spare a thot for urself sometimes yeah? i m here for ya girl!
Z.
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