Friday, December 15, 2006 @12:52 AM
....last night before the verdict will be read out tmr at 10am. there i m standing at the docks of the court, awaiting anxiously for it to be read. for the verdict to decide my future. Fate is the one that decides my future. And an all important one. Because if tmr's verdict turns out to be a death sentence, there goes my life. my career.
Totally feeling emo rite now. not for the matters of the heart but rather more on my future. never have i felt that anxious before. not even the day before my O'level results is out n stuff. Guess wads botherin? its my posting for army man. because shld i fail to get my ass into OCS, SISPEC will welcome me with open arms. for all i know, SISPEC is known as Sch of infantry specialist, but i prefer to call it "
SUFFER IN SILENCE PLUS EXTRA CONFINEMENT"cant it get any truer? i mean sispec goes thru the same shit as ocs. as in literally have the same amt of suffering. just that its a mere 5 months instead of 9. but the rank is helluva a lot.but to hell with the rank hierachy because my mind was made up 2 months ago , that i m gonna make a navy officer, a lifetime career for me.
Also, if i successfully negotiated the OCS hurdle, it will be a stepping stone to further success. it will be a vital one that propel me further. yes. my desire to get a degree in SMU. of the 3 Uni which i compare, i find SMU's style of teachin, holistic and broad-ended. gone are the typical ways which local teachin r where they throw u books to study, or the always teach-and-listen,write and listen kind. whats more exciting is the fact that smu accept students for who they are, not what they are of, academically. its character and leadership qualities etc etc that they're lookin out for to make the whole sch a lot more vibrant. like a cosmopolitan city of rich,diverse culture.
there u have it, might seem like some advertising agency promoting the uni, who cares, thats how i feel abt everything man. but in fact, perhaps they shld pay me if such an advertising media of minute impact pays off HA. yup. thats how i paint my life in several years if everything goes accordingly.
Tmr's gonna be a hectic day of outing. might follow ron to safra to collect the movie vouchers.might catch The Holidays, not a bad movie cause i love sentimental flicks. Plans for jacks' farewell dinner before he enlists the next day is still in the midst. Might head out for more retail therapying despite me being so fuckin broke. G-star's having sale baby. shall pop there to check out the caps and prolly will get another pair of denim IF.....IF there's sale haha.
Aunt's giving out xmas goodies early.so might take adv of it by buyin sth pampering first.hmmm it finally dawn on me that satisfaction can never be fulfilled. told myself that gettin that wallet of mine shld suffice, and now i m lookin for more shits! damn i m such a fickle ass.
Debit card finally arrives. yeah cant wait for it to start fillin up with cash from my salary before i embark on a spendin spree! haha.
Oh yar, chilled out at Liquid's Kitchen @ Serangoon Gardens earlier with ron. all i can say is its a great hangout place,with that alfresco feel. dimly lited with plush seats, soccer tvs, pool and smokin area. ultimate chillout.owe u one ron. ;)
will be headin off soon. wakin up early for a long jog tmr. wish me luck for tmr postin. will blog abt it.
after 14wks of monotonous entries. i reckon this lengthy entry as a refreshin and juicy one? haha adieus :_)